I have a picture in my bathroom that reads “ Follow your Faith”. Whenever I look at it I always think of up to the heavens. As I examined the picture, this year I noticed it had 2 arrows one pointed right and the other pointing left. I thought, well, that is confusing. I’ve had this picture for over 8 years and I had never noticed the underlying message it was sending of confusion. 

Which way is your faith? This is the question I asked myself. It is up to the Lord, it isn’t left or right, it definitely isn’t down, I thought. When I applied my thoughts to my actual walk in life, I was brought to the contrary. I was pulled left and right one arm reaching for faith and the other reaching to understand life. Which is it, and why had I struggled so long with figuring this out?

Being double minded and hearted will bring you so much confusion. On one hand I have faith and on the other skepticism- How can both operate? They can’t, my faith was being washed away by skepticism, the wanting of proof, the want of understanding, the need to put the pieces together and search for the missing ones. The trails of discovery I would take myself down that lead to disappointment are disheartening. 

So much time given to wanting to figure a matter out, pondering and replaying situations in my head as I abandoned faith and God’s understanding. 

I can admit there was a time, I had such an immature understanding of God’s way, that even when I had faith, I thought searching was still an acceptable action, you know, just to make sure. 

I have always been inquisitive, a deep thinker and I figured my skepticism was an effect of the knowledge of the world and how things don’t always go as planned or desired. This was ignorance and ego. In God’s word we learn that he has an understanding that we should seek.

 I love Proverbs 3:7-8 

7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.

8 It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.

Actively working as this deep thinker in the world was killing me from the inside out.        I had to learn to not be wise in my own eyes- even in the eyes of my peers, who would come to me for advice because of my attention to detail and thoughtful rapport.      Hours we would give each other conversations on how to succeed or overcome the issues of our lives, giving God several sentences in each talk, but never seeing ourselves as foolish in the attempts. I will speak for myself, I was foolish in spending so much time in my own thoughts, filling my own ego. 

I also love Proverbs 4:7-9 for this subject 

7 Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.

8 Exalt her, and she shall promote thee: she shall bring thee to honour, when thou dost embrace her.

9 She shall give to thine head an ornament of grace: a crown of glory shall she deliver to thee.

The time I was giving to comradery in the world, attempting to solve worldly problems that in hindsight should’ve been deserted all together, should have been given to God. God is not the author of confusion and he will even give you a discerning heart and mind to stop nonsense before it turns into an ordeal to be repeatedly discussed as friends often do. Coming to conclusions hoping for the best, but there is a way in the Lord that keeps us victorious. This is the way of the Lord for us. As we seek the Lord, reading his word, meditating on his word and living, our lives will bring us trials and this is when we can be tested in our wisdom and knowledge.

 It feels so good to have a trial in front of you, knowing you have God leading you through the unknown. The Lord brings such a victory that all you can do is give the glory to Him! 

No more phone calls saying “Guess what happened, again” no more updates on the mess that keeps interrupting your livelihood. Walking with Jesus gives peace, it is one of his gifts.

 He tells us this in John 14:27,  Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

We usually call on people when we are afraid or confused, needing that comfort of someone we know that cares. God wants to be the 1st call. His peace that he gives will hold you, no skepticism, no extra detective work needed, he will set you at peace with whatever situation you are going through. Faith in him is all we need, this faith is found in his word, knowing it will reveal everything we need. 

I pray that we all find our faith from above, and we aren’t pulled to and fro in this world.

 I pray we let go of our usual ways and seek God’s ways, wisdom and understanding.    As he gifts us with a discerning heart and a sound mind, we have proof that his way of faith is the only way we truly need, God Bless. 

Psalm 29:11  The Lord will give strength unto his people; the Lord will bless his people with peace.